Too long

Hey all its been TOO LONG since I have last blogged. OK the update in short is:
Broke up with Vinny
Am going out with Luke
Asha and Dion are together
Boycey and Hayley broke up
Damien is being a jerk as normal
umm there's more but I cant think my brain's kinda turned off, I'm all tired-like

OK so here goes with the long explanation of whats going on
As you all would have read on my previous blog Vinny and I broke up and I feel better that we did. We kept fighting on the net and I just ended up blocking him and havnt unblocked him yet. I nor any one else thinks its worth it.

Everyone was going on that Luke and I were going out, but he hadnt asked me out so we kinda just went with the crowd and stuff. Then we got talking about it one night and he asked me out. Twas good, and really cute. That was on the 15th. Wow all so long ago. Its a really good relationship at the moment and I want it to stay that way. I'm just worried today that his parents dont like me. I've had a kinda bad, but still good day. I got kinda depressed a little bit and I got rather self concerned. I have really low self esteem, if any one didnt know that. And I started complaining about what I dont like about myself to Luke and I think I was scaring him. I just hope he doesnt think I was looking for compliments or anything. Its not like that at all. But oh well.

Now to Asha and Dion. They are finally together. They really know how to take their time. It seems that Dion was wasting his time on Kim. She's all wierd lately supposedly. More slutty like. But I wont mention anything of that, its not my place. I just wish Asha and Dion well with their relationship. AND LET ME JOIN ONCEIN A WHILE ;-) (private joke)

Luke and Hayley broke up! I saw it coming. Its like ritual. Their relationship was just a repeat of mine and his. Which was jsut a repeat of Emily's and his. But yeah I feel less awkward talking to Hayley. OH! And Luke is talking to me again its like WOW!! Its good but I know things I dont want to... well its ok knowing but its awkward... I wont get into details.

Damien's being an ass, per usual. Dion, Asha, Luke and I were at my place one night and Dion was meant to be at Damiens and then Damien came over about 4 in the morning with a big stick and beat Asha and Dion with it, and threw things at them, which ended in Asha having a black eye. He got home, without his loving Dion and was abusive on the net. No one see's why he is this way. He's not going to even try to keep Alison, its really sad. I could sit here and bitch about all this shit in my life for so long but I'm tired so I'll end this blog now.

I would write more but my head is like dead-like. I'm tired. So I'll probably blog again tomorrow or something. Cya's all later, sorry for the crap catch up.

Love
Candy
xoxoxo

A lot of change

WOW I had an awesome day at school today!
Explanation of that more later, but yeah... let me start from where I left off last blog.
Saturday night I went to Luke Burrow's party, with God. Damn its got to be the best night I have had in ages! It was only the six of us (Josh Taylor, Morrit, God, Nancy, me and Luke of course :P) But still I had a great time, I dont know about the others. I was the first to be thrown into the pool, but it was so worth it. Morrit was being a flirt as always, Nancy then me, and back and forth, biting me, so I bite him back, as if he doesnt expect it! He's bruised coz of me :D Morrit did rather bring it onto him self and he knows it! We all ended up going for a swim sometime into the night. Both damn Josh's tried to keep dunking me so I had to get Luke to save me. Thats pretty much when I figured out I liked him. I didn't really want to go when it was time to leave, but I had to, and I did.

Well Vinny and I got together, for a total of 2 days. We officially started going out on Sunday afternoon, and he stayed at my place until 2.30, Monday morning. God I was fucked for school. But anyways, something happened, and I dont feel comfortable writing it up on here. But yeah I think it was too soon and I just didnt feel the same after. Man I was confused! I really didnt like him as much after it. And also it was hard to deal with the 2 people I liked in my head
I asked some of my really close friends about what to do and what happened, and they all thought the same thing I was thinking. Breaking up with Vinny. I just... felt so wierd with him, and I guess... I started liking Luke a little bit more. But I wasnt going to leave Vinny for Luke. And I didnt. One of the bad things from the break up, are all the rumours. There were .. are rumours going around that at Luke's party that him and I fucked... I didnt ... I repeat, it DID NOT happen, ok? So yeah just to get that straight
And I dont care if no one believes me, as long as I know and he knows we didnt then its ok.

With all this relationship problems there always is marriage problems... I "divorced" Barton, and came to find out that he ended up having a big crush on me.. supposedly... but still. Its rather awkward. Oh well shit happens.

Asha hasnt been too good lately, Dion doesnt know what to do, to be back with Kim or be with Asha. He's goign to try and be with Kim again which is hurting Asha, she's reminiscing all the times when she was with Ben. So she's all anti-social, and thats not like her. I am worying for her so much aye. I care a lot for her, we're so alike and I just cant help but feel sometimes we're more related than mates! I hope she's ok!

Today had to be the best day out of the whole school year so far. Its hard to pick why, but it was just... fun. I guess its just coz I could cuddle up wo Luke all day and yeah just feel good about it. There's something there when I hug him. Something that makes me feel fuzzy and warm. Its a good feeling. I didnt even feel that in a hug with the other Luke... Luke Boyce. man thats confusing with the two Luke's lol.
Yeah its always awkward then Luke Boyce goes and sits where we sit at lunch, I guess we (Asha and I) did kinda invade, but yeah so everytime he's going to be there I am just going ot get up and walk away.
Jin and I had the best lil sparr today. It was good fun. It was random, yet fun. I find the grade 12's so much better than the old group I sat with.

I spent most of sport with Luke, cuddling up in the art room painting. I really like him heaps, but I dont want a relationship yet. I think I need a break for one for a lil bit. But yeah I do like him alot. We just made a deal to go to the movies tomorrow :D

Ending on a happy note... I AM HAPPY AGAIN :D more than I have been in a LONG time.

Love
Candy
xoxoxo
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