Well today sucked. I'm sitting here in SOSE and I feel like shit. I didn't sleep well again and I'm all grumpy and tired. And also extremely depressed. I broke up with Luke. I feel like shit but I thought it felt the thing to do, he doesnt understand how I feel but I just... I don't know. Some people may be thinking that I am breaking up with Luke for the wrong reasons but they don't know. No one really knows and I can't explain. I'm so sorry Luke. I just.. can't explain it. I feel so fukt up at the moment. I don't even know what to write now but there's still almost half of the lesson left. I 'm going to have to go home explain to mum why I'm depressed get the long lecture and sit back and play some games listening to some loud music and escape. It wont do much I just want a bg hug... not my mother. I just need a hug, junk food and some where or how to escape. Bah. I feel so bad I don't feel like me I feel so mean. I just couldn't stay with Luke something had clicked I don't know what or how but... I don't know I can't explain. I just want someone to understand without me explaining. Someone to know what I mean and just give me a hug. But I'm not going to get that, I'm going to be seen as the evil one and no ones going to understand and ... I'll stop rambling in depression. Damn why do I not sleep well, why am I depressed why do I screw things up...
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