I feel like some chocolate...

Sorry about the title just kinda random... Couldn't think of anything else really...

Wow last night was perfect... i wont mention most of the details but ..wow.... We sat there in my room going to sleep with Luke gently caressing me in the most loving and relaxing way ever... I swear I was asleep in two minutes... I fell asleep to him murmurring sweet nothings quietly in my ear... well *supposedly* he was , but I believe him. That is so romantic, doncha think? Well that was about ... 11 last night... and yeah I woke up at about 3, fully awake and I couldnt sleep again and Luke had woken up at the same time aswell! Freaky shit I tells ya! So we sat there talking and I wont mention the finer details... Went back to sleep once the sun had rose, at about 5 ish or a little bit later than that.
Woke back up about 8-9ish. Showered. Went to Lukes. Went to go see a movie. The times sucked coz Luke had to work. Went shopping. I didnt think it was capable... Luke acturly SHOPPING :-O... Luke is the best fun ever! Except for the fact he has nails ... he knows what I'm talking about *squints eyes*.

So we went back to his place, he got ready for work.. I got a lift home... And I miss him heaps already...

So I have been sitting here chatting to Tiff ... WOW She's AWESOME I really wanna get to know her and fulfill my not-yet-existing new years resolution...
I hope that tomorrow will be good. I wanna spend time with Luke and Tiff and Damien and any other friends that happen to end up coming to whatever happens tomorrow... I just know I wanna be with loved ones and close friends. =)
Peace out people
Love
Candy

Random feeling:
I am really relaxed at the moment I dont know why... just peaceful... its cool :-)

shreds of a life

I dont know how to explain the last few days... they have just been ... plain random I guess... Monday wasnt that eventful... I went to the shops with Alex and yeah we hung out for a while. I bought 2 new tops! They Rule!!! One I am wearing now, its just a plain black halterneck top and it looks rad. The other top is FUCKING COOL!! Its like a black singlet with drawn on mesh and a mouth and the words "SURRENDER TO PUNK ROCK" I saw it and I was like YEEW!!

Alex rang Tommy while we were there, and he was at the shops too.... he wouldnt say which one he was at, and he was all snappy...
So Alex tried to get Tommy to come over when they got back. He wasnt back for ages, Alex left at 3, I fell asleep about 4-4.30 woke up at 7. How Eventful.

I rang Alex today... Wow... she did it... she broke up with Tommy ... after them so much "meant to be" and all.. they acturly met about 6 months ago, and Tommy got him friend Roxy to search the whole school for Alex. They re-united because of me and yeah I thought they were good and so deeply in love. But Alex found Tommy too busy and all. He never really did have time for her. The only time she has seen him is when she went to his mums house lal the way in the city, and when he SNEAKS OUt when Alex stays at my place. Now come on, even I would be a lil pissed at that!

I am so LUCKY to have Luke, just for that reason. I get to see him soo much and I am sooo happy about that! I just gotta wait for the day he gets sick of being arond me... I know it will happen and Luke wont admit it, but yeah I never want it to happen but *meh* I shall enjoy the happy company before he gets annoyed with my annoying-ness. *sigh*

I better go to bed soon... even though I slept like 14 hours today and I dont know how I can be tired, I am!
There is so much stuff I want to mention on here and yeah but... I promised.... its something in my heart thats starting to get to me deeply BUT I wont say because I promised, only two people know and thats the one person I got told by and another person I discuss all my problems with.. thanks for being there all the time Dion :P
But back to this issue ... its tearing me up inside.. I really cant mention anything else about it but seriously I dont regret being told its just confusing me so....

Sleep calls now...
BYE
Candy

Random:
So I says to the fella, I says, THATS not a watermelon!

Kinda felt like Christmas

I went to Luke's yesterday for Christmas.... I stayed up until about 1 that morning talking to people wishing them a merry christmas on the right day =P.

So I wpoke up about 7... wishing Luke was the first person I saw... but he wasnt there =( So I left at about 9 to go to Luke's after opening about half my presents.... When I get there he was asleep in the van.... We sat around for a while until the rest of his family showed up.
By that time I was almost BURSTING to find out what he was giving me for Christmas! So I sat there while everyone was opening their presents and all and finally Luke give's me my present.... It was the most AWESOME present ever.... He got me the BEST EVER present... it was a ring!!!! For people who knew I LOVE IT ... for people who didnt know what it was or that Luke was getting me a present it is the best thing ever...
Supposedly it was really expensive and it looks it and I feel I am not worth wearing it and all...

For the rest of the day I walked over to Alex's house, we got a lift back, opened the remaining presents... went for a pointless hour-long walk to the BP coz nothing else was open..
When we came back I persuaded Luke to come over... when he got here I had started to dye my hair and Alex doesnt know what to do and I thought I may get Luke to help me... and yeah I was irritated from walking so much and it being so hot and all and I got snappy...which ended up with Luke cut at me ... *sigh* and it was all my fault...
I hope that never has a repeat *sigh*

Everything turned out fine we had a good night hah hah Alex Luke and I wrestling and ticking each other in my room *no nothing suss* lol but meh we fell asleep later.

Went to the movies today... saw The Incredibles... not a bad movie... *thumbs up*

Now its just Alex and I sitting around for the rest of the day...
I miss Luke already lol I wanna spend all my time with him forever but I betcha he is going to get sick of me soon... I really hope he doesnt but when I am not around him I miss him sooo much... its been a month now with Luke and I ... Thats what christmas day was aswell... it kinda felt lke christmas =) but yeah it wasn't that bad a day just some of the time I wish didnt happen....

Random:
YOU HAVE THE FATTEST OF ASSES, YOU FAT BASTARD
- Jiggly Butt, Foamy, Ill will Press toons

Love, Candy xoxoxo

'Twas the night before christmas, and all through the house...

"not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse"
BULL-FUCKING-SHIT!!! gosh its like the most un-quiet night ever.... well, not really but yeah you get my point.

So yet again, a day which was good!! Wow its amazing, I thought today was going to be he BIGGEST bore ever... but then the most amazing and good thing happened!! As I was about to go for a shower before I go to the corner shop for mother =[ .... anyways as I walk past the door I hear this knock.... I open the door to Luke, who may I say, looked SEXY AS! DAAAYYYUM lol ... anyways, I look around the corner and THERE HAYLEY IS!!! OMG I was like soooo excited and happy because it has been TOO LONG since I saw her!! Yeah so having them there saved my boredom-ness... hah hah I fooled Hayley with this thing... I wont ruin it for any one that may want to know what it is lol....

Haylz left about 3.30 and me and Luke sat round and stuff... I wont bore you with gritty little details ;)... So at about 7.30 Luke and I went upstairs and he fell asleep for a while... my bad he must be a light sleeper I woke him up like 3 times or something by accident.

The bad part of the day was having to have Luke leave lol I wanted to wake up next to him tomorrow morning so he owuld be the first thing I thought of, first thing I saw and felt =) Christmas is a special time of year and everyone should get to be with loved ones and close friends. I hope everyone gets to....

Catcha's ....
Candy xoxoxox ... no randoms tonight its too Christmassy lol...

Don't ruin Santa for the kids... YEAH THATS RIGHT LUKE

I guess I will try and make this a short blog FOR ONCE...

Luke stayed the night *yay* I woke up this morning to his right next to my face... those beautiful hypnotising eyes of his =) Lay down just for a while, got up then we went to the shops... The first thing I did was get Alex's present!! I left it a bit late OOPS!! Oh well it looks awesome for whoever knows what it is. =)
We walked around for a while getting some pressies for people... Luke sent me away to get mine haha... I WANNA KNOW WHAT IT IS.... but I dont coz it ruins the whole surprise!!

I have no idea what I am doing Christmas Day... I want to spend it with close friends and loved ones... Like Alex and Luke and my Mummy =P

Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS to whoever may be reading this...

RANDOM:
SANTA IS REAL!!! no really he is...

Candy
xoxo

Evil Blah's Evil Lair House Type Thing

Well today was alright I guess the best part was being around Luke.... LOL

Well he stayed the night last night *sigh* how I have missed him so... I woke up next to Luke this morning =) I love those mornings when that happens... We spent the whole day together it was so awesome... I wont detail you with the mornings lol .
Luke was in a playful mood lol he is so fun to be around =) and he thinks he is dull and boring *sigh* As I keep repeating on these darn blogs he is the best he is perfect in every way...

I sat here for the time he wasnt here and played some guitar... haha I'm learning!!! Yay!! Yeah I suck at it though maybe its the fact that I've onl been playing.. what 3 days now? Anyways I think I may make this my shortest blog ever and just leave it here... thats how eventful my day was =) with Luke here it was but I think I may stop going on and on about him, he's my obsession and anyone who may read this may end up obsessed with him too!! NOO lol...

Catch ya people who ever that may be haha
Candy xoxo

RANDOM YET AGAIN
All these people talking, all this stuff about me, why dont they just let me live?
- My Perogativ Britney Spears
Even though I hate her its kinda some truth to me... no wonder why they do about her tho

Not so Lonely

I am not going to be so lonely tonight! I dont have to miss my Luke another night!! He's here!!! yay! lol... but not at the moment... he's gone with Damien to some music shop thing down at Capalaba Park... Maybe when they get back here I can listen to them play guitar for a while.. niice =D

I realised how much I do love Luke today... I have thought about how much I miss him all the time and just all the things... When he was here before he went with Damien we sat there for like 10-15 minutes staring into each others eyes... I lost myself (as usual) and I thought of all the times that he came over... There is so many things that if it wasnt him and that if I didnt know Luke as well as I did, I would be really cut... but it's Luke and yeah it doesnt matter me about anything... rather wierd coz yeah I thought about this and its so wierd coz it doesnt annoy me the slightest bit ( I wont mention "it" lol) when it can bother me about other people...

In a way I made up with Steph today... I dont really wanna be her friend coz yeah it would just be wierd and all, and it would make me feel fucked up even more. But I gave up on caring... except for Alex Luke Damien and Dion =)

I gotta watch the sunrise while Damien Luke and Dion are there, it will make a great morning lol!!! 3 naked guys hahaha... long story... well not too long I'm just too lazy to tell it.. =)

RANDOM
I like Rusty spoons.. I like to touch them!
-Salad Fingers

Love
Candy xoxoxo

OVER IT

Oh Gosh, I hate arguements, I really do!
I am so over rumours too... All I ever hear about me is lies and rumours that go on. Why Me? It makes me lose friendships, and it causes un neccissary arguements...
I have rumours about me for no reason, like just random stuff that hardly oncerns me all the way to lies, and things that have been stretched way from the truth that it seems like a fully made up story.
I know one spreader of rumours, no matter how much this person will end up denying it I know its the truth that this person has spread shit about me.. many a things, and not one has ever near happened. This person is hated by many. No names for protection... I ahve no fucking clue why I am protecting this person though.... I guess most people who know this person will know who I mean I think lol I may be a bit more ... harder to make people guess I spose...

Anyways it's just breaking me up coz its harder for me to just live my life, without going through heartache, or just losing friends or bullshit spread by jealous people and stuff...

I'm over it. I really am. If any one else has anything to say, then say it! Doesnt mean I wont listen, ust means I wont take anything to heart anymore. Luke Alex Damien and dion are the only people who mean anything in my life anymore... so yeh do what ya want... believe what u want, as long as my friends, my close true friends can believe me...

RANDOMS AGAIN
Won't you get the fuck out of my face, Now
-Korn - Good god

Candy xoxo

Nameless HERE forever more

I dont know how to start this blog....but I guess I just did so meh =P

I dont know what to call today... Well for one, I had to wake up early from some shit stirring last night... someone on Andrews fone kinda tried to imply something was going on between Luke and Steph... I really hope not I know pretty much 100% that nothing went on coz Damien waas there lol I would have thought them two would have hooked up before anything else ... but this IS Steoh, and whatever she's been saying to me from like the past 2 years and crap and how she has been about Luke I wouldnt put it past her but I love Luke and trust him...

I went to sleep at like 1 after having a great deep convo with Dion, he is such a great friend once you get to know him... I dont know why he is hated by the whole group I am hated by aswell.. Dion ur awesome!!!

I woke up at like 8, had to get ready to see my Oma.. in a nursing home *shudders* gosh it smells of old in there... So we stayed like all of 20 minutes and I had to sit there not knowing what was going on, because my Oma only speaks german, because of her stroke .. So I had to sit there holding her hand *sigh* *disinfect it its infested with OLD!!* and listen to jibberish...

I came home, rang Alex.. she said she was coming over soon, an hour and a half later she shows up.. with her guiter... so I sit there for a while and try and play toxicity... I can play the verse now I am so proud of myself lol its the second time ever in control of a guitar haha *thumbs up*

So then we go to the shops, look around there for a bit and yeah I saw this guy I used to be friendswith, we used to have great talks on the net and hang out al the time (he's 22, but nothing sus! everyone thinks that, and everyone thinks it will turn out to be more) he WAS a great person to talk to and he was like the most trustable person ever... and one day he just... never talks to me again.. what a waste of friendship *sigh*

So we come back home, I get more involved in learning toxicity, I think I got the first part kinda good I hope lol I'm hopeless, I know.. yeah I tried to get Luke to come over but he wouldnt the lazy bastard =P nah I love him I hope I get to see him tomorrow I miss him so much! but maybe I should stop missing him and all coz like I think I am too clingy and its going to end up annoying Luke but I cant go without seeing him!!! lol I think I shold just shut up about that lol.. I just dont always wanna sound so attached and yeah ... I just love Luke so much!!!! - comment if u want me to shutup about Luke now lol

i'm dissapointed in Alex very much so... but thats another story for another day for when she KNOWS what she's doing...

MORE RANDOMS:
yeah yeah yeah, your a FAT BASTARD - Foamy, Jiggly butt

Love Ya'z
Candy xoxo

Nothing to do, Something to say

Today has been quite eventful... not really...
Well I did wake up around 6.30, with Luke leaning over me =) OK, more to what happened... Last night there was this party at Kaceys, and it was soo bad... *sigh* They were playing Brittany Spears or something just as crap as that!! So Luke and I sat there for about 15 minutes... then we just got up and decided to leave.. So we got a lift back with Damiens mum, to Luke's place.
No one was home :P BUT nothing suss... long story, and lol I dont wanna say or I'll just get blamed MORE even though I dont see how its my fault!!! anyone who doesnt know already ...dw you dont WANNA know...
So we sat there for a while on the computer... I chatted to my dad a bit... I guess I was a little bit rude to him now that I think about it... but yeah I think he kinda deserves it...
Anyways after a while Luke's dad came home so we just snuggled (I luv dat word =D) on the couch for a while until Luke's step mum Loraine came home... she's all uptight about stuff, and I cant even kiss Luke around her! And that means I had to sleep in a different room, so I coldnt slep with his arm around me and feling his warmth *drifts off into a daze*

Anyways he woke me up at like 6.30 and we sat around downloading music, kissing.. laying on a futon staring into each others eyes *drift off into daze again* huh?? soz my bad...

So anyways I had to get a lift home as Lukey Boy went to work.. I missed him so much today!! Me being me, I read the chat logs from months and months ago... BOY How blind have I been? It's sooo obvious he liked me!! Steph better be bloody thankful lol.. I think about it now and yeah I so wanted to go out with him a while ago... Oh well you get friends u loose friends... Like the saying "See who your real friends are, fuck up and see who's still there" I dont know anyone that is my friend that I wouldnt still always be there for...

I tried to get people to go to the shops with me today... no such luck... Damien being Damien.. lazy... wouldnt go with me... Dion you poo head, you said you would =P. Meh I have a whole 6 days to finish getting Christmas presents lol...

*sigh* thats like my whole day... tomorrow will be worse, but hopefully better lol... tomorrow I have to spend time with my family... they all speak german and all I know is how to say "hllo, my name is Candice.... and "goodbye" ... So I am going to have FUNNN.... not...

Alex is coming over after I get back tomorrow =) so it'll be all good

I miss Luke, I will miss Luke... I want my Luke!!!...Meh I guess I have forever to have him (hopefully)

Catcha's....

RANDOM OF THE DAY
I have bread on my head =D ..

Love,
Candy xoxo

Deprived of my needed Sleep!!

Hey to whom may be reading this...

I am so damn tired lately, because I havn't been sleeping! That would most likely be because I miss Luke so fucking much... But the whole me not sleeping thing was overcome last night where I passed out into the land of sleep about 8.00 Thats the earliest I have gone to sleep in what, 2-3 years??!! I was awake for about an hour of the early morning but I was too fucked and too fucking lazy to move and check the time.... haha thats me for ya... I'm so lazy =) I woke up at like 9 this morning *yawns* but thats a reasonable 11-12 hour sleep .. it was so needed!

Now to my non-stop writing about Luke lol... Yeah Luke u know u love it =D He is the most AMAZING guy.. not last night, the night before he slept over but the thing is we only got like 7 hours sleep!!! yes, back onto the sleep subject, but only for now. We woke up at like 8, to a phone call from Noeleen, his mother. She sounds petty cool, and she has a nice voice *thumbs up*. But anyways, thats off the track..
That night.. yeah I know u guys are thinking suss stuff, nah thats later lol ;) Yeah anyways Luke is the sweetest guy I know... I am willing to say one of the sweetest in the world.. I doubt you guys will wanna know, or care if you are reading this.. He had a "surprise" for me and I didnt know what it was!! At 10.00 I hear my mobile having the alarm go off.. its a reminder saying "I love you 4eva" I was like so amazed... Luke, you undoubtedly the sweetest guy ever! And the best boyfriend!! What shocked me was at 10.05 my alarm went off again!! It said "read out box"... what it said is for me to know, just something I wanna keep to myself forever!!!
I just know that I Love Luke to death!!

Yesterday was eventful.. Woke up next to Luke =) Then we went down to Damiens.. hoping to hear them jam... Hmm I dont think I have said anything about heir band yet!! Dang!!!!
Ok, here we go...
The Sexual Panda's... thats Luke's and Damiend's band... Damien's at drums, and Luke is guitarist, all they need is a bass guitarist and vocals, maybe. They sound FUCKING AWESOME!! yeah lol I am Groupie no. 1, Ashley one of my close mates, is groupie number 2... We have a camera man (Dion) lol and yeah thats it so far!!
ANYWAYS I wanted to see them jammin' coz they sound awesome and Luke looks so gaddamn sexy =D But we ended up just going to Damo's ... watching Luke roll into bed with him.. *rolls eyes* Damiens just lying there with his arm over Luke lol I'll post a pic if Damien send it to me.. Smart and Quick thinking me, I told lil annoying Mick to go get the cam =D and I took the best pic lol. Once Damien got up... like 2 hours later lol, they just sat there and recorded some stuff *thumbs up*
Once I came home, around 2.30... to sadly watch Luke leave for work =( I didnt really have much to do any more lol... I was going to go down to Capalaba Central, or those shops to buy some more pressies .. and to help Dion get a ring for Kim..
But he didnt call and I was asleep around 8 so meh

Catcha's later, I ran out of stuff to write for now lol

RANDOM COMMENT/QUOTE AS I LEAVE

The doctor game me 7 pills and 12 pills and 27 pills and 132 pills, and most them are purple and all have these little E's on em and I don't know what that means but I take em anyway
- (Pillsy) Ill Will Press.. The Owner

Bye bye ,
Love Candy xoxo

WHAT A DAY!

WOW... I just have to say wow... Today has been great, it really has. I don't know one thing wrong with today.

To start things off, I woke up early today, well thats probably the only bad thing, I only had about 5 hours sleep, but that doesnt bother me so I guess its not bad. But more to the point, Mum went to Sarrina Russo's (the job options place) to meet the actual Sarrina... and that in itself is pretty awesome...
And yeah more to the point, the good thing is, she has been trying to get a job for a while and her first time she has applied for a job... SHE GOT IT!! it's pretty awesome

And the second best thing is that i have my boyfriend here tonight... By God I love him to pieces.
He is truly the sweetest, most perfect guy in the world... I was just staring him in the eyes for like 15 minutes (yeah it may seem wierd and strange) but I seriously lost myself in his eyes... all I saw were his perfect eyes and there was no world, I could have sworn it was hours, not 15 minutes....
Maybe I can sleep tonight, coz lately I havn't been able to sleep coz I miss him too god damn much!! I can now safely say I am going to sleep well tonight, with his arm wrapped around me so I can feel his warmth and have some awesome dreams =) And yes Luke I know you will end up reading this =P

I just guess today hasn't been all that eventful, but damn its been great!!

The weather's been bloody scorching the rooves lately, but today it was so nice and cool, it never got over 30 inside today so that was great. Oh yeah we went to Damiens, which was pretty good. We went to get hot chips... haha Damiens dog Dog was going to come for a walk with us to go get those darned hot chips and then we ended up getting a lift with a neighbour somewhat up the road. So we sent Dog home, but he just stood there as we slowly drove away... As we walked back after eating a very suss meal of chips and kabanna's it was drizzling a bit... Natures air con *sighs* aaahhh.. thats such a relief to like 36degrees (centegrade)

Chat to ya's later, I miss my babe...

RANDOM QOUTE/SENTANCE, AS I AM LEAVING...

Cliiiive....

Catch ya's
Candy xoxo

Doin A Damien

Hey, well I am just copying damien more... I just cant sleep and its almost 4.30!!! I think I'm going to watch the sunrise too...

I think I miss Luke too much... I knew I wouldnt be able to sleep... I tried for ages and I cant sleep properly without his arm around me, or unless I can feel his warmth..
Is there something wrong with me???

I had some weird dreams... But I can't remember them anymore, which sucks coz I would have posted them but meh!

My father is online... I don't know if I should try and talk to him... It's the only way him and I talk anymore, online. But he hardly even had time then, or I want to go to bed or something.
He's not that bad once I talked to him after a while... he was supposed to be coming to see me these holidays but the "tickets were too expensive"... dude, he owns his own business...
It's kinda unfair though... I havn't seen him in about 5 years, and yeah he told the courts when mum and dad were getting divorced that he would see me twice a year, so that he wold pay less child support... Meh I''ll live, I have for these past 14 (almost 15) years of my life...

Mum's going to find out if she got a job today =D
she's been going to Sarrina Russo's for ages now and she had her first interview on Monday!! Just down at the local shop Clive Anthony's... GOOD LUCK MUM!!! not like she's goign to ever read this or anything but yeah... She also gets to meet Sarrina Russo today, thats why she has to go into there...
Poor old gal, she's been so good and proud about everything I hope she goes far....

I just told off my dad in a way... he's all shut down and stuff.. = I feel so weird now coz the only times I can talk to him are when he's at work... and he wasnt talking, then he's all like sorry, I have people here... I just came back (without thinking) yeah you put work first, you'll do that...

Wow Damien... if u read this... You are rightm watching the sun come up is amazing... its so nice and all... It just looks prettyful =)

I just heard mum cough and roll over, I dont know if thats a sign of her waking up, but the thought of her catching me on the net this early in the morning ... meh... She just doesnt like me on the net at all =P

My GOD I miss Luke... I can't stop thinking about him, I couldnt sleep, and I dont think I will be doing any sleep later either.... I may need some dosage of coffee or something to keep me awake today, maybe the heat will do the trick... Coffee doesn't seem to have any effect on me... that just reminds me of Luke coz he drinks coffee like non stop!!!

So on that note, I bit you Adu...
And I leave you with a random saying, as I leave...
THERE'S TOO MUCH BLOOD IN MY CAFFIENE SYSTEM!!
And I advise to whoever may be able to wake up at 4.30.... watch the sun rise

Candy xoxo

Deadly

Hey People
I must me annoying or something coz I'm blogging alot! But oh well, I told ya its not worth reading this its kinda pointless...
Anyways
I just thought about this again, I could be dead... Like really, if I hadn't have moved back from America then I could be dead...

OK, everyone knows about the whole anthrax in america and all.... but this is serious... EGSACTLY (well, the suburb) where I lived had the first known it or whatever you want to call it, of anthrax mailings... Boca Raton/Delray Beach (that's the suburbs where I lived!!) has the biggest mail place thingy whatever you want to call it and yeah so I could have been infected and I could be dead...
WOW ...
If you think about it, how would the world be changed? I reckon it would be different if I had died...
Deep thinking brings this random pointless thinking out of my head...
I wonder where my mother would be?? I think she would have come back to Australia anyways... Yeah she would have moved to Queensland aswell, and she would have lived with my uncle for longer, or found her own place, have gotten work earlier, she would have found a guy most likely. Either that or a deep state of depression... hard to tell about my friends though .. I wonder where they would be now... Like I wouldnt have met Luke and thats probably the worst thing ever!!
I wonder about what my enemies would be doing ... because yeah I'm hated by heaps and yeah they wouldnt know me or anything...
That just got me thinking... I betcha Luke would still be with Emily or Steph... I have a feeling he would be more likely still with Steph
I wonder if Alex and Tommy would have re-united ...
Dean would have been with someone meaningful for that 6 months instead of me...
I reckon there would have been alot more happy times in peoples lives if they didnt know me...
Hurmm thats just getting kinda depressig, me thinking about how I could be dead and everyones lives would be better ... well not everyones just people who I've met or people who were enemies or just aquaintences... well more than aquaintences coz it wouldnt change them...

enough about dead me...
chat later, blog fans...

RANDOM WORD, WHILE I'M LEAVING...
pah-doodle

Later, sex fans
Candy xoxo

Urges of the new Craze!

Blogging is like so cool and addictive!! Damien you rule... What would the world be without you? =P
My Sweet and sexy boyfriend Luke ( I love you so much!!!!! mwah ) has blogs too!! hehehe I love the word "blog" its just so... random!!! And Random things are just awesome!!!.. anyways to anyone interested.. http://sexualpandas88.blogspot.com (Luke's blogs) hee hee I am so not getting over that word *thumbs up*

Catcha's later with more random babble...

RANDOM WORD OF THE DAY...
Pidgy Pidgy Pidgy POTATO?


TO ALL WHO CARES, my first entry was annoying and wouldnt go to the bottom so I deleted it.. and I am pasting it at the bottom of this so meh get used to it lol




THE FIRST COPY

Hey guys... Well I am copying Damien, one of my close mates... I only have a few close mates but those who are them mean a great deal to me, I would give my life for all of them.

I have the best boyfriend in the world... I am so happy with him. He's like ..perfect! I feel so great when I am with him... It's amazing that its only been like 3 weeks but it seems forever and I love him dearly. I could go on about him forever but I don't want to waste anyone's time more than I will be in my posts..

Thanks Damien for giving me an idea on doing this!!!! Check his out too on http://damino-effect.blogspot.com/ Now I have somewhere just to put my random thoughts and events!!!
My life isnt as simple as every one wants to probably think about... I could be dean right now, hundreds of times over. One time I found out today...

Ok here's my life story in short: Mum, Dad and I lived in Perth, WA until I was about 7. Then dad didnt want a job in Australia anymore, so he got a job in Florida, America. So we moved there for about a year and one month. Mum and I moved back coz it really sucked there. you wouldnt understand how bad it was... I was not accepted straight away ... I bullied to hell, Pushed around, Teased, you name it!!! I am so amazed that my ankle hasnt been broken from how much it was twisted and stuff from me being roughly pushed over...Anyways that got me off the subject... Mum and I moved back, and my dad "claimed" he didnt know that we were moving back and he lied so much. He also hacked into the airport computers or got illegal information form our travellist, because this is really freaky... private information that we didnt tell him ... he rang up the hotel we were staying in at Malaysia. It may not be that bad but you know, it really was. Just before we left, mother found some emails from some lady in Argentina .. and pictures of her *cough cough* if u get my point...
So mum found out he was cheating... When we came back, the olds (my fathers side of course) were bitchy, wouldnt let us back into our home, wouldnt give us our furniture and crap like that...So we came to QLD where most of mum's family is, and its the best damn thing thats ever happened to me.

Sorry about that, it was MEANT to be a short life story...

Anyways ... I shall complain more about my life for a lil bit ...I'm hated... By many people ... And I dont know why ... Thats prolly the worst thing in my life, I have uncountable amounts of people who hate me, and they even said they have no reason to hating me...

Back to the best thing in my world at the moment... Luke, my sexy boyfriend =P
I'm so worried I'm gonna end up fucking things up with Luke or he's just going to end up not liking me, coz I never have him off my mind and I always wanna be around him, and I dont want to crowd him *cries* He's so perfect and I dont know what I would do without him, he makes me so happy (as I said before) I just cant believe I've known him for so long (almost two years now!) and yet I guess I've had feelings from him this whole time, because when we first met we were supposed to end up going out

which leads me to this, I doubt she will ever read this, but its to Steph Roney..
I'd like to thank you, I really would. Thank you for introducing Luke to me, because he's been a great friend over these years, and the best boyfriend ever. I knowwhy you were so obsessed now...
but I'd also like to ask you some questions...
Why have you been this way to me? I've only ever tried to be your friend, the only reason I wasnt with Luke earlier is because you were a friend, a FRIENd and that means something to me. And I dont go around hooking up with my best friends guys... and mainly, as a friend to ANYONE, I dont start rumours... I dont lie to people and if you dont know what I'm talking about maybe the rumours that u started about me last year will help u remember
* for one, you told jesse and all those people you and I "experimented" what the F*** was going through you're mind???
2, supposedly you told everyone I fucked Luke while you were going out with him...
Now I dont know why you would say that, thats just warped... and it leads me back to what I said before...I could go on about heaps but I dont wanna waste any more space then I have..*
I just really wante to thank you Steph... even though I hate you now for what you've done to me.. I found my happy place *in Luke's heart*

anyways thats enough for me for now

so just my random comment, as I leave...
DAMIEN YOU RULE... * finder of funny...stuff* *great friend* *good at GODDAMN EVERYTHING*